Do you ever wonder why you or others are moody? What makes a person moody? How can you control your moods? Why are there some people that are always happy?
I remember when I first got my label... the doctor prescribed me a medicine that started with a Z. You would have thought that I found the HOLY GRAIL. I guarded that medicine... in a sense I worshiped that medicine.
You've got to understand this medicine was my "key" to happiness, my "key" to normalcy... it was supposed to make me feel happy. I took the first pill and waited for the effects... Nothing! The second day... nothing! The third, forth and fifth nothing! nothing! NOTHING!
This went on for awhile, I felt a bit better but I had VIVID dreams. Dreams that when I woke up I could not determine if they were real or not. I would wake up panicked, morning after morning...confused that whether or not my dream about my mom dying was true or not. I mean truly confused!! I would call my mother crying, "I had to make sure that you were alive!!" She would assure me that she was fine. But my dreams... they were VIVID so REAL!!
This Z medicine was making me go crazy....I could no longer decipher between dreams and reality.
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